Home Court

There are a lot of things that I hate about Manila but I cannot deny that it is my city.

I was born in CdO but honestly I never got the chance to walk its streets like a local. I never got lost for I always had someone with me wherever I went. I do not even know how to commute. Sad, right? 

On the other hand, Manila is my home court. I am proud of the fact that I can navigate through the city with less difficulty. I know my train stations, streets, jeepney routes, etc. However, at first, I got a bit lost in the big city particularly in the Recto area and I ended up walking straight the avenue until I found my LRT track. But that was one sweet life event. In return, I was able to memorize the streets and I kinda decided to expand my area of responsibility thus I was able to conquer the nearby districts.

If I have to go on a date with someone in the future, I prefer to do it in my home court.

PS Forward ever, backward never — I was hoping that my Manila people would change this slogan because I always laugh whenever I read it somewhere

Yearbook!

Hello again. I was reading some documents in my laptop and found my yearbook write up.

A Day In The Life
Coleen makes it to a point not to be late for class but seldom takes down notes. She immediately updates her phone calendar of any requirement or activity but honestly, her calendar is just full of scheduled gala during weekends and even on weekdays! She loves to see, eat, or simply walk with her friends. Coleen is honest; she does what she wants to do without hurting anyone in the process – if not, without the intention of. Her wala akong pake’s and di ko alam’s are not a manifestation of her apathy, rather of her candor and nondiscriminatory character. Underneath her easy-going and mababa ang kaligayahan personality, she looks after her friends and family. And although coming off as “the quiet girl” at first, she has a lot to tell and offer. During free time, Coleen listens to her music – the oldies as known today. She dreads sleeping late and only hardly ever does so.
Simplicity is Coleen’s trademark and for me is her biggest asset.
-Bernadette Toledo, BS MatE 2015

Hayyy zzz

We Were June Babies

First day of April! There are a lot of grad pics in my feed right now. I am happy for them but I also feel sorry because the fresh grads will now face the boring world of adults. There might be existential crisis or whatever. I do hope that somehow they will land a job that can give them a bit of purpose in life.

We were June babies, my batchmates and I. But it was actually a sunny day when we graduated, both university and college graduation. I could still remember those days. I was simply glad that most of us finished all the requirements prior to the submission of the graduation candidates list. I myself almost did not make it. Just kidding. I had it all planned and the stars would never allow that.

June is our month and I am waiting for my UP friends to wear their sablay and finally claim victory. June because we are different.

Knowledge, progress, service together with honor and excellence – we can never go wrong, right?

PS My grad pic was never shown to the public. I look bad in pictures.

Life Update 3/25/2017

I have never been this free. And single.

Anyway, I recently met some of people. Should I mention their names? Well, there’s Hyae who wants me to become a lawyer for whatever purpose she could think of. Agnes, yes, I love Agnes and the book that she gave me. Of course, Rogel, the best friend who could only drink at most three bottles of beer.

Metro Manila temperature is driving me crazy — 33 deg C sure feels like hell.

And that “Hoy, Azelea Coleen Salcedo!” from a college friend that scared the shit out of me. Because nobody wants to be caught reading some smut in broad daylight.

That is all, that is all. I guess. For now.

ps im working on something and im having this urge to find someone

Perihelion

This is the closest

and this will do

from the depths of my core

to the unreachable that is you

i am lifeless

if not for your warmth

ah, i will cease to exist

if you must be gone

for billions of years

i am in awe

for billions of years

i am in love

with you who inspire me

with you whom i desire the most

but little can be done

great, as you will always be

and i am your lowly servant

if the void must come

and nothingness will prevail

i am thankful for a day each year

when i am nearest to you

dream

it was as if that was the first time i saw you

with that smile of yours that could rival the heavens

those eyes which looked through my soul

and short breaths i swear i could hear in silence

as i stood trembling inches away from you

i stared at the blank space, never knowing why

first beat, second beat, third beat

my heart was beating alright

fourth beat, fifth beat, sixth beat

but something was not right

everything in the background slowly faded

you were there with me and gave a look

by then i knew it was already over

reaching for your hand and holding you with all my strength

my thirst could not take no longer

that scar on your forehead i kissed

as i felt your skin against mine

i looked at you with desire and love

i looked at you with sadness and grief

this soon should be over i guessed

for all has been a dream