This is the closest
and this will do
from the depths of my core
to the unreachable that is you
i am lifeless
if not for your warmth
ah, i will cease to exist
if you must be gone
for billions of years
i am in awe
for billions of years
i am in love
with you who inspire me
with you whom i desire the most
but little can be done
great, as you will always be
and i am your lowly servant
if the void must come
and nothingness will prevail
i am thankful for a day each year
when i am nearest to you
it was as if that was the first time i saw you
with that smile of yours that could rival the heavens
those eyes which looked through my soul
and short breaths i swear i could hear in silence
as i stood trembling inches away from you
i stared at the blank space, never knowing why
first beat, second beat, third beat
my heart was beating alright
fourth beat, fifth beat, sixth beat
but something was not right
everything in the background slowly faded
you were there with me and gave a look
by then i knew it was already over
reaching for your hand and holding you with all my strength
my thirst could not take no longer
that scar on your forehead i kissed
as i felt your skin against mine
i looked at you with desire and love
i looked at you with sadness and grief
this soon should be over i guessed
for all has been a dream
that was my all –
all that i could be, all that i could give
was not that much, but it was all that i had
i gave it to you
but it was never enough
i was never enough
all those promises i still keep
even though you are far from my reach
he has you now
and i have nothing left
for i already gave everything
to you, the love of my life
i love you still
and that is all
The last glimpse I had disappeared in an instant
You, on the other side of the platform
Gone
As soon as the train arrived and took you away
No
You never wanted to stay
But you never dared to say
Trembling was I on the edge of the side where I was
If taking a step closer to you means death, I would gladly die
But everything happened in between seconds
After the last heartbeat that was for you
That I could not move even my soul
And you left, you left me, smiling
Leaving a message engraved in the walls of my being
Scars, pain
Hurt, sadness
All at once
As I was waiting for my train
Far, far, away
Far from you
I wished for the rain
How far is far
When I try to reach your hand
but you vanish along with my dreams?
Can you, will you
Stay for a minute
in a place where the past is behind us
and all we have is what we are
now?
Leave, I will stay
Go, I will wait.
Falling in love after a heartbreak is like playing the guitar after a long time. Sure you already know the basics but you have to start again, yes, I’m talking about the pain that you will feel on your fingertips and all that effort devoted to practice. However, as you keep on playing, there will come a time when you will no longer notice the pain and all you think about is the music that you make. This music will radiate and bring happiness to you, your significant other, and your loved ones (sometimes, even strangers). Keep on playing because there are a lot of new chords to learn, songs to sing, and feelings that only love can bring.
I’ve had a handful of false alarms. I thought that I was in love with guys, girls, trees, mountains, the list goes on. Those were the moments when I thought I’ve seen what love really was. Or maybe those were only pieces of the puzzle that I have been desperately trying to solve. Nevertheless, everything somehow made sense and gave me insights about my lifelong quest.
Then you came. After a heartbreak. Not really a heartbreak but a period of isolation from the world I was trying to escape. I really did try but things have ways of their own. And maybe one of those ways brought me to you (you to me).
I was standing all alone against the world outside (Love Will Keep Us Alive, Eagles)
Two less lonely people in the world (Two Less Lonely People In The World, Air Supply)
Now that I have you, I’m alive (Now That I Have You, The Company)
I’m so glad I found you, I’m not gonna lose you (Nothing’s Gonna Stop Us, Starship)
The songs mentioned above more or less summarize what I feel about you. I may have downloaded these songs ages ago but it is only now that they are starting to have meanings and feelings associated with them.
I am thankful for our friendship and everything in between. Ours may not be a romantic love story but I could not ask for more. I love you, my dearest best friend.
PS Love is all that matters, after all.
When that fated time falls upon us
I can only hope that I am prepared enough
to see you, to be with you
fearlessly
to embrace your presence, your existence
together with mine
with my truth that I can never hide nor deny
But now all that is left is agony
after the joys in the past
still I am hopeful that I will be ready
For what is love if we do not love
The Middle Eastern sun failed to shine brightly today. I woke up to the sound of water droplets along with thunder. I was told that rain is quite rare here in the gulf so I thought today must be special.
But is it really? I am not quite sure. I still found myself thinking of how I ended the year that was and started the year that is. I still can’t believe that I did both without you. I don’t even know your whereabouts as of the moment. Where the hell were you on the day we were supposed to meet? I was waiting for you all day long only to my disappointment. Now, you don’t even know where I am. I flew without telling you. I guess what we had would never come back.
Of the years we spent together, I forgot to ask you one question:
Do you like the rain as much as I do?
When I told you that I might not be able to see you again,
I cried a little
a little of too much that drowned this earth in sorrow
sorrow, unwanted by fools
for only fools do not know that
to love is to cry a little
I should love you less
like rain in droughts
patiently waiting
blissfully falling
for the chance to embrace
the dry fields once again
but to love you less is being selfish
for you deserve that much
you deserve the best
How many days more
how many days left
too tired of counting
but not of waiting
for I was told
and I believe
that what we have
transcends everything
thisworldexists 